No jackpot today. But, as Jason and I see it, we made it through another day without news of another kickout! A few weeks ago I asked our coordinator not to call us during the workday with bad news. So, 4:45pm - 6:00pm has been designated as the "danger zone" at our house! You can probably hear the huge sigh of relief once 6:00pm rolls around. We are not OUT, but we also aren't KICKED OUT at this point. This the longest we have been back in PGN, yet. All of our previos were issued within 3-4 weeks. So, to get another kickout at this point would just be CRUEL!
Even so, we know the unpredictability of PGN all too well and anything is possible. But, we are hopeful and, believe it or not, feeling more relaxed than we have in a long time. Of course, "relaxed" is a relative term because I really don't know what that means anymore! Right now, it means that I am not laying awake at night consumed with worry and anxiety and we are enjoying the "idea" of spending the summer home together as a family of three. It feels so close, closer than ever, yet still so far away. PGN seems to be back to working at a snail's pace, but hopefully we will hear some good news very soon.
In the meantime, we are getting ready for Eli's first birthday on Friday. I thought I was "okay" with missing his birthday. That is, until I went to the party store Saturday to buy cutsie first birthday plates and napkins. It hit me like a brick and it was all I could do not to lose it in the store. Once I hit the door, the floodgates broke open. I know it won't matter once he is home and I know it means nothing to Eli at this point, but it still hurts to miss spending this special day with him. We celebrated his birthday while we were in Antigua and that was wonderful. We are also having a birthday party with family this Friday. I think this will also be a very special day for his foster family. Eli has been a part of their family since he was 2 days old. There is so much LOVE surrounding our sweet pea and there will be celebrations in two countries on April 11th!!
We love you sweet pea!!!!