The End of Utopia

Sigh...the summer is over and school has started so that means Jason is back to work. Our utopian summer of all being home together has come to an end. It was so wonderful and such a blessing for us both to be home with Eli during out first 3.5 months bonding together as a family. I still have 2 more months until I must face the inevitable return to work. I am so lucky to be able to take this much off, but I can't believe how fast the time has gone! It seems like we spent the first 3 months just trying to find our family rhythm! The last 3 or 4 weeks, however, have just been amazing! It seems like we have hit a whole new level of comfort, security, attachment, etc. It is so fun to see Eli's face when Jason comes home from work. He gets so excited and one day danced himself in circles when he saw Jason coming up the frontwalk! Yesterday morning I listened to him on the baby monitor for about 30 minutes as he woke up in his crib talking and making himself laugh with funny noises (I just couldn't help myself!). It just melts my heart! He knows he is home.

Even so, that anxiety of going back to work is already starting to creep in a little bit. Just a little. I am quickly realizing that this time I have left is so precious and I just hate the idea of only having a few short hours with our sweet pea in the evenings once I return to work. I know all of you working moms battle with this as well. But, at this point, it is what I have to do so we will just make the best of it when that time comes. In the meantime, I don't want to spoil the rest of my time off with worry and anxiety so that's enough of that!

Here are some pics of this past weekend. My mom's credit union celebrated their 70th anniversary this year so they had a big party to celebrate. Eli got to try out some of the race cars!